Need to find scholarships and grants so i can get business managment degree to furthur the small business i volunteer at, so i can actually get paid. Lol. Oh! And need a job and my own apartment.
I am sad. My phone is going to shut off today. Baby daddy didn’t pull through. And volunteering doesnt pay even though it makes me feel good.
I hate the sound of fighting and screaming.
Especially when it’s coming from me. I DON’T RECOGNIZE MYSELF.
and everyone who screams sounds like a enraged demon.
So confused. An adele type of day. Baby daddy offered to pay for my phone. I said ok. It turns off today. We’ll see what happens…..
Told my sister I still love him and she was shocked.
Just because my love does not die, doesn’t mean i will be subject and slave to it again.
Think of it as creating an immunity to a virus/cold.
I hate feeling like a letdown
do you ever wish you could just stop time for like a couple weeks so you could just sleep and do whatever you want and just get your shit together and then after that time would just start back up again and you wouldn’t have missed anything because you would just pick up where you left off
He offered to pay for my phone bill when i told him it was going to be shut off.
He told me to tell him when payment is due.
I cant seem to find it in me to tell him. To ask.
Am i proud?
Am i just pretending?
Just letting all my wants and desires lay low till i can make them come true….and meanwhile trying to do everything my parents approve of and trying to stay away from the things they frown upon…
I am done arguing your case.